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Yep….just like that! While I love Summer, I’m really happy to feel cooler weather and look forward to all the changes. This Summer was a bit rough. Some of you may have noticed I took a short break from blogging these past 3 months. Now that things have settled, somewhat, I find myself needing the outlet…needing to connect and reach out. As some of you may also know, I lost my grandmother back in June. She was like a mother to me. My best friend. My everything. I miss her terribly. It’s made me feel so lonely at times, yet at the same time just wanting some alone time so I can talk to her and feel her presence. She’s with me always. I know this.
This whole experience has really taught me so many things….my compassion and sympathy for anyone who has lost a close loved one, well, it’s just become pure love and empathy. Death is inevitable. I know this…but I also know and truly believe that there is something more. It gives me comfort. My grandma had just turned 95 before she passed. So, yes, she lived a long and good life and that gives me some comfort too. Yet, I still hurt. The waves of grief are like nothing I thought I’d feel.
I know we all heal in our own time, in our own way. I’m learning and trying to be patient with myself. A few good friends who have experienced similar losses have told me that I’ll never get over this…that it might seem to get easier, but really it just gets different. I’m grateful for their honesty. I believe them because I feel it already. Just a week ago, I would cry just trying to talk about her. Out of nowhere I’d miss her so much that my chest would tighten and my throat would close up. Somehow, in this past week, I’ve been feeling a little better, a little bit stronger, and more like myself. And while I’m crying now as I write this post, it’s different. I feel her presence big time. Instead of wanting to crawl into bed to cry, I find myself wanting to channel the energy in a more positive way.
I very recently decided to go back to teaching in the classroom. I’ll be teaching Spanish again at my daughter’s school. The opportunity presented itself unexpectedly, but it has just felt so right. It’s crazy how a single event can really change your outlook, make you see and feel things you didn’t before, and just completely make you reprioritize and change the path you’re on. I SO welcome it all. Things have really been making sense and falling into place for me in the past couple of weeks. I know it’s my grandma. She’s watching over me, my daughter, my family.
I wanted to share this with you, as I will be taking a baby step away from the studio to teach full-time. You’ll still see me pop in to check on things or to take a class. I’ll also be teaching a morning class on most Sundays. However, I have a great team of instructors and staff who I know will hold down the fort and allow me the space and time I need to take care of my family and take care of me. I will not be posting a blog again until the New Year, when we revamp the website a bit. Until then, I just want to thank you all so much for your support, your smiles, your hugs, and for just being you! I am forever grateful for our Twisted Monkey community and family. Wishing you all a blessed Fall and Holiday season.
In Memory of my beloved Lila,
Bhakti and Namaste,